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Koschei yanked his hand back, looking at Barty with a level of mistrust. The first comment stung and he couldn't help but feel slightly dejected by the idea of being dismissed like that. Sure he kept talking, trying to make it better, but he knew Barty wasn't happy. And it was a countdown now, a race against the clock till Barty left him behind. Alone in his madness.

"You are impatient. You don't understand what it's like, it's easy for you," Koschei snapped angrily, slamming his hand on the table. He caught himself before he did anything else, gritting his teeth and forcing himself to hold back. Pushing his plate aside, he ran his fingers through his hair, not knowing why he kept doing this. The drums were driving him insane.

Standing up in a manic manner, he tried a new tactic. Forget and repress. That would work. If he stayed only focused on the normal bits, he could make this work. "Look, lets not do this again. You wanted to see a film, yeah? Lets do that. A film is good, it's normal."

"You're right. Sorry. I'm working on it, too, alright?" Maybe he was too impatient. He wasn't even sure. No one had ever given him a manual on this. He got up and picked up the plates, because as much as he despised household tasks - he damn well shouldn't have to do them, he hadn't been raised like that, he hadn't studied for that, they could afford help - it did give him something to do, it was a certain routine, it made it easier to focus.

"Sure. Anything you're in the mood for?" Film could be normal, maybe. Perhaps pick one he didn't like all that much, just in case things turned sour. He didn't like associating good things with bad.

Koschei silently moved over to their collection, scanning through them with a small frown till he found the perfect one. The one he knew could make him normal and make Barty look at him like he used to. And, finally, he smiled and grabbed it off the shelf. Spinning around, he presented the film they'd watched together on his first birthday in this flat, the one where they'd been fairly drunk and pretty bored. He'd worn the exact same smile when he presented it to Barty the first time, waving it around like it was the best thing ever. Never mind that it was a kids film.

"This one," Koschei insisted, holding it out for Barty, still smiling. his first proper real smile in days. "It's a great one! I haven't seen it in ages."

Barty felt strange for a moment, strangely protective of the movie, really. As if it was some kind of time capsule holding a part of his life he wasn't sure he'd ever get back again. But then he just looked at Koschei's smile and he smiled back, stepping forward to wrap his arms around him and kiss him, a hand in his hair and his eyes closed. Kissed him just because he loved him and because it was good to be with him. Felt great.

"I'd love that," he told him as he leaned their foreheads together. "I'd really love that."

Koschei beamed at Barty and took in this lovely moment, playfully kissing Barty back. And then he let him set up the DVD while he took a seat, feeling very proud of himself. Koschei got a kiss and everything, it was brilliant. Maybe that's what he had to do? Play normal, pretend that nothing is really wrong and he'll be fine. His heard hurt so badly but that was okay, they could just put out the lights while the film was on. He'd be fine.

"Good, I'm glad. I like when you're happy, you make me happy," Koschei insisted, sprawling back on the sofa. He was still undressed post shower but he didn't seem to care, he very much intended on getting his warmth of Barty. "I miss being happy."

"Yeah?" Barty laid down next to Koschei once he'd finished starting the DVD and turning the lights off. "I miss you being happy, too." He glanced at the screen as the titles started and suddenly it was a lot easier to remember different times. His fingers in Koschei's hair and watching his face more than anything and being so in love with him he couldn't get enough of any part of him, talking, kissing, sex, everything.

"I'd do anything to make you be happy again." He was trying to do everything, really, so that wasn't too boisterous a claim.

"I know, I know," Koschei said, moving against Barty and gently accepting any comfort. Not lashing out, not yelling, just staying calm and giving him a break, a reward for putting up with him. Cause lord was he ever being a total dick lately, even he saw it. He had that level of awareness now, one that would decrease as time went on. And he was going to use it to help.

Holding Barty's hand tight in his own, he gave it a small squeeze. "Trust me, I'll be okay. Just don't ever stop loving me and I'll be fine."

"I won't ever stop loving you. If I didn't stop so far, I won't stop now." Barty squeezed his hand back and he was smiling, suddenly able to actually believe that things would be okay. Would be normal again, normal for them. He turned his head to the side so he could nuzzle Koschei's neck, kissing there the same way he'd done years ago when drugged halfway out of his mind. Had turned out well for them, ultimately, hadn't it?

"You're still the most adorable."

"Well, you still loved me when I smelled like piss so you have to love me now I have showered and no longer have my head in a toilet every weekend," Koschei may have joked about it and laughed but the memories still hurt. They always hurt. He still had nightmares, they still rotted his mind inside and out. No wonder he was unbalanced, no one had given him a chance at sanity.

No one but Barty. Fondly, he reached up and playfully toyed with Barty's hair, so glad to have him close again. To be loved again and feel love back. "And you're still a wonderful bastard."

"Am I? Don't tell my father. Although I'm fairly sure he suspects the bastard part, definitely didn't get my looks from him." He closed his eyes, breathing evenly now, calming down finally. He only paid very little attention to the movie, mostly focusing on the moment. Precious moment that he intended not to forget and that he wanted to make the most of.

"You're beautiful and brilliant. I always thought to. Well, the brilliant part, didn't really get around to the beautiful until I hit puberty and then some."

"Your father is an idiot, a waste of space. Forget his exists, like I told you. Forget the rest of the universe, it doesn't matter. Just me and you," Koschei insisted happily, wanting that more than anything. For the world to stop and just he and Barty to live there, to be happy there. Wasn't that easier? No complications, no families, no jobs. Just them, alone and happy.

"Oh please, you always thought I was cute. Even when naked with my teletubby boxers around my ankles," Koschei teased playfully, jokingly ruffling Barty's hair. This was such a great moment, he wanted it to stop. He wanted them to have it forever.

"M-hm. Maybe. Though I like having other people around sometimes. Makes me all the more grateful for knowing you. Having you." Barty kissed Koschei's neck again, smiling about feeling Koschei's hand in his hair. "I did. But in all fairness, those were really cute boxers. And also, you're always an impressive sight when naked. No matter the temperature."

"I am the best of the best," he teased, giving Barty an entirely amused expression. Then he looked down, eyeing up the towel he had that was hardly covering him. Strange fitting, actually. "You know, I should probably put some clothes on. I still have my teletubby boxers."

"You can go change if you want to. I can pause the movie." Barty was strangely adverse to the idea of Koschei actually getting up though, this moment felt entirely too fragile. And too precious for him to want to risk it.

"I love you."

"I'm too lazy, I like how things are too much," Koschei just readjusted his towel and sort of wriggled about, dropping his head against Barty's shoulder and making sure he was close enough to soak up the heat. And the moment. He wasn't ready to let it go, not really.

"I love you too.

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